You can not find a thing which is not there....

                                                          So it's not about some random love,a guy whom you admire or boyfriend or lover or any that kind of thing.It's about something SUPERIOR.About someone whom you see regularly,observe regularly...may be for years....Somebody who is always there but you never feel his presence.Somebody we wish to be what he is but that someone is so different from their typical type that you can not get used to him even if it's after ages.It feels the same way,always.... even after so many years as it felt for the first time when you realized it.You try to love him..you try harder to find love IN him...but it's not there...And that love,trust me, is not something which can be substituted by anyone or anything ever.You CRAVE for it but you just can not get it.You see all the people who have that love from his typical type but for you it's just something you can not have or say,never have.It's not because it's his fault or your fault..It's just because it's NOT THERE....And obviously you can not ask for something which is not there to somebody who is there,but still never there...All you can do is feel the same way every time ALL OVER AGAIN...