LOOKING AT YOU

My nights are sleepless
And days are rough
But looking at you,
Heals them all
I may break
I may cry
But looking at you
Gives me strength
The sun never
Shines for me
The clouds are
Often rude to me
But looking at you
Gives me hope
Without you nothing
Seems right
Just broken dreams
And incomplete life
But looking at you
Makes me smile 😊

THE TRUTH....

                                                                      No matter how sad,how bad,how angry,how aggressive or how disgusted you feel after knowing the truth, the truth is you need that.You needed that all this while.No doubt, it will piss you off at first but as they say IT WILL SET YOU FREE.It may destroy your every inch of hopes and beliefs but the next thing it will do is,free you from the burden of that deceptive appearance.You may cry,you may fall,you may break into pieces,but after all,it is something that you have to accept.It may be sweet or it may be bitter as hell,all you gotta do is listen it out or sometimes find it out.You may not accept it and keep holding on to your fallacious imagination,but time will come when you won't have any option rather than accepting it.THE TRUTH CANNOT BE CHANGED,FORGOTTEN,EDITED OR ERASED....IT CAN ONLY BE ACCEPTED

If it hurts...It's not love

                               Recently i read somewhere, "don't fall in love,rise in love".I thought for a second and realized what a beautiful line it was. People say love is pain.Love can hurt you in a way that you can not escape, but i think Love is something more than 4 alphabets. It never lets you down, it inspires you, it is something that makes you a better person or rather a happy person. Love gives you happiness, the mere thought of your beloved, which can be anyone- your family,friends,lover or any other person, makes you smile, not the fake one but it makes your soul smile. Yeah sometimes may be you miss them or you may have some problems but even at that time it doesn't give you pain.It's kind of dissatisfaction or ignorance that you feel because your expectations are not fulfilled or you just don't like the way it is..That is not pain because still when you think about that person, everything about that person somewhere deep down you feel happy.But pain is when you just want to undo every incident with that person because it hurts so much that you can not take it anymore.It's when you want to unmeeting him at the first place.May be because you are not able to love them anymore becaise it's taking away a part of you because you are losing yourself in the process of loving them or may be because it's enough...it's too late.Because you waited and waited and waited even tried but it's not happiness anymore...it's PAIN.That's the time to realize that's it's not Love anymore.Because Love never hurts.Rejection,disappointments etc may hurt but loving someone never hurts and if it does than it's not Love..And when it's not love you know what to do... 

Not a feminist view but a woman view...

                      I was never the FEMINIST type,neither i am saying that i am.But you know! SEEING THINGS CHANGES THE WAY YOU SEE THINGS.It's a shame that even in 21st century we live in a patriarchal society.Even in this age women are suffering from the TYPICAL SUPERIOR MALE EGO.Now days we see that a lot of women are fighting back and rising up against domestic violence,martial rape and all such things.But sometimes women don't suffer from a visible dominance but from an invinsible I KNOW IT ALL egoistic nature. Her walls are cracked but still she is keeping her foundation strong enduring all the hammering. She is being like this not because she can not protest but because if she will let her thoughts speak out loud then the entire building will be destroyed.Her whole world that she created enduring all the pain and drying all the tears will be shattered into pieces...Because now it's not only about her, but also about her creations.Because she doesn't want the balance which she have maintained for ages to be polluted.Because after all these ages she doesn't want to break the peace or the outer protection that sometimes exists inspite of the cracked walls.She is not the one who needs sympathy or the feminist view or some inspiring story because inside may be she is hopeless but outside she is an EPITOME OF HOPE, OF SELF INDEPENDENCE, OF MAKING THE DIFFERENCE.She contributes to the society. She does whatever she can do for her people, for her literature, family and everything and everybody.She may not be the ALWAYS BEING SWEET KIND...But she is the TRUEST KIND.Yeah!! She lies...she complains but at the end she GIVES.She is the one who needs bit of support, bit of love, bit of care.Actually she doesn't need...SHE DESERVES as she has been having what she doesn't deserve and most importantly what she deserves is a lot of RESPECT.

You can not find a thing which is not there....

                                                          So it's not about some random love,a guy whom you admire or boyfriend or lover or any that kind of thing.It's about something SUPERIOR.About someone whom you see regularly,observe regularly...may be for years....Somebody who is always there but you never feel his presence.Somebody we wish to be what he is but that someone is so different from their typical type that you can not get used to him even if it's after ages.It feels the same way,always.... even after so many years as it felt for the first time when you realized it.You try to love him..you try harder to find love IN him...but it's not there...And that love,trust me, is not something which can be substituted by anyone or anything ever.You CRAVE for it but you just can not get it.You see all the people who have that love from his typical type but for you it's just something you can not have or say,never have.It's not because it's his fault or your fault..It's just because it's NOT THERE....And obviously you can not ask for something which is not there to somebody who is there,but still never there...All you can do is feel the same way every time ALL OVER AGAIN...

Talking to people is way more easy in our imagination...

                                                          We talk a lot in our imagination...Be it an introvert person or any person.Even we react to imaginary situations in our head..we plan to talk and react in a particular way but sometimes it's so different in the real life situation.May be because people act and react in a different manner in our head.Even for an introvert person it's easy to talk in utopia.We are in our imaginary comfort zone in our imaginations and when that veil is unveiled by the real life it shocks us or surprises us.Even when we face a hard situation in our head it ends up being easy for us or say,less hard.Imagine...imagination is a part of our life or technically a part of us.It's beautiful and at times, it shows us a way which we can not see but do not live in your imagination.Let the imagination be a part of you but do not let yourself be a part of it...
p.s-don't let imagination overpower your vision

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