For the first time i am pitying myself...Even i find it strange coming from myself because i am usually the one who believes self pity is not an option.I am not able to recognize what triggered this kind of feeling but yeah i feel week...Which i hate to feel..I feel alone.I actually love being lonely but suddenly i don't... Suddenly i have a kind of urge to have someone just by my side just to ensure i am not alone.I know that tomorrow i won't be feeling these things.But every night is becoming hard for me.I watch people sleeping day and night but i am just not able to sleep.Every night the thoughts of these kinds creep in my mind.When i close my eyes either i see the darker shade of the dark or scattered things...Sometimes i am too afraid to be afraid...Sometimes i am afraid of the fame...and sometimes of the ignorance.. I am so confused about approximately everything that it's getting tougher and tougher...It isn't like i give up...i try each door...but seems like when the door was actually there i didn't see it and now i am just hallucinating..Life is not all about surviving it's all about living...live it before it leaves you...and grab each door before it's remorse starts grabbing you
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